I wasn’t nervous until about 4 hours prior. Even when you know the answer, you really don’t know.
Having known for myself since December, the past few months have given me the ability to think it through with how I wanted things to go down. I knew I had friends to involve and family to consider. All of that is important to her so I started early to make sure all bases were covered.
It first started out that I wanted to create a website with only one post. One post that would encapsulate all that I was thinking and all that I wanted to say before I actually asked her the question. Then we would have the site to look at and she could send her friends the link to the site and I can always be known as the greatest, most thoughtful person on the planet. That’s right and one that would never have to clean a dish or a diaper from that moment on. Ahem. Then I thought it really wasn’t personal enough. Sure, being somewhat of a blogger, announcing it online and dedicating one tiny corner of the internet to the proposal is pretty cool but it just wasn’t us. She needed something tangible.
I decided on a book.
The idea of writing a story on a web post changed to writing a story in a book. Something she can hold and turn pages with anticipation. Soon after trying to construct a story, I realized that it might not be the best way to go about it. I started writing down all the things that I love about her. Random thoughts that made me smile and made us completely us.
I also wanted to make it visual. I wanted to share pictures that mean the most to her. Pictures of us, family, friends and things. Throw all that together and you get this:
My nose is not THAT big. It's the camera angle...shut up, I bet your nose is huge.
As you know, we had scheduled a date night and before we left her house I told her that I had a date night present for her. I wrapped the book up and had her sit on the couch. I think just the idea of the book was enough for her to display her big smile that I love, but she was soon to find out that it was just a bit more than just a book.
This book is filled with pages of what I love about her and visual proof of some of those things. Pictures of her family and friends. The pups. Her favorite picture of me as a kid. Funny stuff. Meaningful stuff. The book ended with stating that it wasn’t finished yet. It read that it still needed three more words. Courtney struggled with what those three words could have been. Why? Because of course when you think of three words, it’s always “I love you” and we have said those words many times.
When I saw that she had read it and was mildly confused, I started sharing what the book means to me and some other stuff that I don’t really remember. I’ve heard that what you say can sometimes be remembered as a blur. It was definitely a blur because all I could think about was what I needed to say next.
And with one deep breath, I simply stated that “I’m going to get down on one knee now.”
I shared with her why I picked her couch as the place, that it was where we had a lot of our first date watching Flight of the Navigator after the State Fair. It was where we first kissed. It was where I first told her that I loved her. It was the perfect spot for us and with her chocolate lab laying on the ground not giving a care in the world and my chocolate lab literally going insane as I’m on my knee. I also share some things that aren’t going in this post. By this time, she had gotten down on the ground with me.
Here it goes…
“I was wondering if you would be my wife?” and opened the box.
She wouldn’t even look at the ring and said yes a couple of times and kissed me.
“You haven’t even looked at the ring yet?”
“I don’t need to…”
Well she did in fact finally look at it and I could tell I got it right. Mark that fear off my “things I never want to experience bucket list”.
Oh yeah, the three words I needed to write in the book to finish it?
She said yes.